Think and Learn something

poems

My delight and thy delight
by Robert Bridges

My delight and thy delight
Walking, like two angels white,
In the gardens of the night:

My desire and thy desire
Twinning to a tongue of fire,
Leaping live, and laughing higher;
Thro' the everlasting strife
In the mystery of life.

Love, from whom the world begun,
Hath the secret of the sun.

Love can tell and love alone,
Whence the million stars are strewn,
Why each atom knows its own,
How, in spite of woe and death,
Gay is life, and sweet is breath:

This he taught us, this we knew,
Happy in his science true,
Hand in hand as we stood
'Neath the shadows of the wood,
Heart to heart as we lay
In the dawning of the day.

I am shut out of mine own heart
by Christopher Brennan

I am shut out of mine own heart
because my love is far from me,
nor in the wonders have I part
that fill its hidden empery:

The wildwood of adventurous thought
and lands of dawn my dream had won,
the riches out of Faery brought
are buried with our bridal sun.

And I am in a narrow place,
and all its little streets are cold,
because the absence of her face
has robb'd the sullen air of gold.

My home is in a broader day:
at times I catch it glistening
thro' the dull gate, a flower'd play
and odour of undying spring:

The long days that I lived alone,
sweet madness of the springs I miss'd,
are shed beyond, and thro' them blown
clear laughter, and my lips are kiss'd:

And here, from mine own joy apart,
I wait the turning of the key: -
I am shut out of mine own heart
because my love is far from me

Wouldn't it Be Nice?
performed by Beach Boys

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong
You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldn't it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy

Wouldn't it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice

Good night my baby
Sleep tight my baby

The Cloud
by Percy Bysshe Shelley

I bring fresh showers for the thirsting flowers,
From the seas and the streams;
I bear light shade for the leaves when laid
In their noonday dreams.
From my wings are shaken the dews that waken
The sweet buds every one,
When rocked to rest on their mother's breast,
As she dances about the sun.
I wield the flail of the lashing hail,
And whiten the green plains under,
And then again I dissolve it in rain,
And laugh as I pass in thunder.

I sift the snow on the mountains below,
And their great pines groan aghast;
And all the night 'tis my pillow white,
While I sleep in the arms of the blast.
Sublime on the towers of my skiey bowers,
Lightning, my pilot, sits;
In a cavern under is fettered the thunder,
It struggles and howls at fits;

Over earth and ocean, with gentle motion,
This pilot is guiding me,
Lured by the love of the genii that move
In the depths of the purple sea;
Over the rills, and the crags, and the hills,
Over the lakes and the plains,
Wherever he dream, under mountain or stream,
The Spirit he loves remains;
And I all the while bask in Heaven's blue smile,
Whilst he is dissolving in rains.

The sanguine Sunrise, with his meteor eyes,
And his burning plumes outspread,
Leaps on the back of my sailing rack,
When the morning star shines dead;
As on the jag of a mountain crag,
Which an earthquake rocks and swings,
An eagle alit one moment may sit
In the light of its golden wings.
And when Sunset may breathe, from the lit sea beneath,
Its ardors of rest and of love,

And the crimson pall of eve may fall
From the depth of Heaven above,
With wings folded I rest, on mine aery nest,
As still as a brooding dove.
That orbed maiden with white fire laden,
Whom mortals call the Moon,
Glides glimmering o'er my fleece-like floor,
By the midnight breezes strewn;
And wherever the beat of her unseen feet,
Which only the angels hear,
May have broken the woof of my tent's thin roof,
The stars peep behind her and peer;
And I laugh to see them whirl and flee,
Like a swarm of golden bees,
When I widen the rent in my wind-built tent,
Till the calm rivers, lakes, and seas,
Like strips of the sky fallen through me on high,
Are each paved with the moon and these.

I bind the Sun's throne with a burning zone,
And the Moon's with a girdle of pearl;
The volcanoes are dim, and the stars reel and swim
When the whirlwinds my banner unfurl.
From cape to cape, with a bridge-like shape,
Over a torrent sea,
Sunbeam-proof, I hang like a roof,--
The mountains its columns be.
The triumphal arch through which I march
With hurricane, fire, and snow,
When the Powers of the air are chained to my chair,
Is the million-colored bow;
The sphere-fire above its soft colors wove,
While the moist Earth was laughing below.

I am the daughter of Earth and Water,
And the nursling of the Sky;
I pass through the pores of the ocean and shores;
I change, but I cannot die.
For after the rain when with never a stain
The pavilion of Heaven is bare,
And the winds and sunbeams with their convex gleams
Build up the blue dome of air,
I silently laugh at my own cenotaph,
And out of the caverns of rain,
Like a child from the womb, like a ghost from the tomb,
I arise and unbuild it again.

quotations

Good enough is not enough.
-CNN

All's well that ends well.
-Shakespeare

There's a light at the end of every tunnel.
-Anonymous

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Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Is there such thing as 'third sex' in tribes? It really bugs me just after watching globe trekker. They featured a tribe in Kenya and then suddenly here appeared a man wearing a spag. Well, I am not really that sure if that person is a male or female. Oh well. But somehow, that image formulated a sudden wonder. But my hunch is there is such thing in tribes. We never know, right?

Nero's main responsibility is to detect if someone harmed the house or us. He is a guard dog but a stupid one. He chases everyone, even those who are totally harmless like elderly or children. But Nero is a great dog. :)

Our dog is also a very outgoing one. He likes to go out but not over the gate. He really likes to people watch and chase them afterwards.

I love this look. :) This reminds me of the great, stylish Audrey Hepburn. Ooooh, I am so giddy to watch a movie of her. Anyone there who have one? Can I lend it? Pretty please? :)

(drools)
BALLET!

*i blabbed at* 5/30/2006 06:36:00 PM
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Monday, May 29, 2006

I found this oh so colorful book at Booksale (fave!). It's some sort of advice book about problems that affect us from succeeding. I read a few pages. I really could relate to it and that's why I love it. It's really something when you can completely relate to a book.
According to the book, it's really okay if you're at the middle of perfection and mediocrity. It's normal. And it also said that procrastination is is caused by perfection. If you plan a perfect one, you could possibly end up accomplishing nothing at all. You don't want to ruin that perfect picture so you just take your time because you're uber confident that all things would end up perfect as prophesied by your perfect plan. So you also take time doing what you want to do. You're not aware that time already left you so you start chasing it. And that means only one thing, CRAMMING. And you'll become crabby and all to yourself and even to the people around you. And eventually, you'll start to wish the earth would eat you up.
That already happened to me a couple of times most especially in high school.

*i blabbed at* 5/29/2006 09:51:00 AM
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Saturday, May 27, 2006

Feeling very confident that our last session would start at 8am, I took my time in prepping up and set out at 6:50am.
As I was crossing España, it occurred to me that our session might start at 7am because we're scheduled to take our 2nd and last simulation test. I checked the time. It's already 5 mins before 7am. Damn. How will I ever reach the review center in about 5 mins considering that the jeepney ride from my house to the center would take me about 15-20 mins. Now, I'm totally doomed.
Ok, ok. I'm late again. Another mishap.
But it turns out I am not late! Yey! Just got lucky! Yeah!
The test was like what we took the very 1st day.
We finished off at 11:16am.

I forced myself to bid farewell to him. Infatuation will only prevail its goal which is to manipulate me and eventually, destroy my life. Why spend your precious time indulging oneself in formulating unrealistic situations, right? And the worst thing is, there's zero possibility of bringing those unrealistic situations into reality. How dreadful.

Ciao!

*i blabbed at* 5/27/2006 08:56:00 AM
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Tuesday, May 23, 2006

I feel so dumb and stupid having ~~spent~~ wasted my time thinking of HIM. I became expectant about something that wouldn't come to reality. It preferred to just nest in my imagination. It's really a total waste of time in my part. *sighs*
I was never a fan of ranting about melancholic events in my life. I am an optimistic person. As much as possible, I alleviate negatively-charged thoughts. Considering I am out of control at times, I just can't eliminate it without externalizing it. It will just self-destruct in me and I will end up walking on the wrong road.
ANYWAY
I just arrived from BRAINS because I had to give to them the chem problem set. Instead of giving them weeks ago that problem set, I gave to them the exercise which we're supposed to keep. Stupid. I wasted money for the jeepney fare. Total no-no in our crisis today. Bah. What's happening to me? I'm lost. Help me.
Caio!

*i blabbed at* 5/23/2006 10:17:00 AM
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Monday, May 22, 2006

I accepted the fact that there's a zero chance of being friends with him. Ok. If that's what you want, fate then so be it. But I want you to know that I hate your decision. I hate you for that.
BTW, I have a unique laugh: Dahahahahahaha****o
*laughs* That's not a bad word! It's a name! I just can't display his name here.
Ciao!

*i blabbed at* 5/22/2006 03:42:00 PM
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Saturday, May 20, 2006

The sands in the upper part of the hourglass starts to empty itself out onto the lower part. I can't seem to accept the fact that in a few more days, I would soon turn the hourglass upside down again and cope with a new situation. And I don't have the strength to do that. Time is so unruly at times. Wait, time is not the one unruly, it's us. We don't do something we can do right at this moment. "I'll just do that later." or "Tomorrow na yan!"
The problem is us. We just blame someone or something if we don't see things right. Blame yourself instead than pointing out those who are innocent.
So I will no longer blame time for soaring so fast. I will just blame myself. It's really my fault.

I will definitely miss YOU.

*i blabbed at* 5/20/2006 01:50:00 PM
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Friday, May 19, 2006

Here's a conversation between me and Ate Abet.
Setting: We were in a moving jeepney that had passed Halili-Cruz School of Ballet.

me: Bakit hindi mo pinara? Lampas na ako.
Ate Abet: Ha? (externalized a puzzled look)
me: May klase pa ako sa Halili-Cruz School of Ballet!
Ate Abet: Tumigil ka nga. Sa panaginip nalang yan. Ikaw kasi hindi mo pinagpatuloy.
me: (sighs)

Yep, in my dreams. In my damn dreams.

Here's another one with my dad.
Setting: Around 2pm.

dad: Hanggang Wednesday nalang kayo diba?
me: Opo
dad: May party kayo?
me: Bakit?
dad: Eh kasi kadalasan nagpaparty pagtapos na ang review sessions.
me: Talaga? (wishing)

In your dreams again!
*sighs*

Not all the time we can have what we want. I cannot wish to God to bring me back to the time wherein I was a ballet student. He won't give that to me. Time cannot be repeated. It is a continuous and we, humans must not squander a nanosecond of it. It won't return. Never. And on the other hand, I also cannot wish to God to make 2 people know each other with a wiggle of a magic wand, right? I have a hunch I won't have the chance to know YOU. But I will thank YOU for giving me the light I need to recognize a day as a special day. Thank YOU for that light. Thank YOU so much even if YOU are not aware of what YOU are to me. Salamat talaga ng marami.

Note: This is not a goodbye to ice cream#34! I will see him next week. *laughs*

Ciao!

*i blabbed at* 5/19/2006 04:31:00 PM
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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

If I was made to choose between ice cream#34 and be a ballerina, well, I would choose to be a ballerina. Why? Simple. My heart says so.
I always wanted to be one. I so adore ballerinas dancing oh so gracefully most especially when they dance on their toes. Ballet made me discover that I can achieve something I really want if I do something. I was promoted from Primary level to RAD II (RAD II is equivalent to grade 2). I mean how awesome is that? Ms. Radaic was the one who promoted me because she saw in me that I really love ballet. I can still remember how I said to myself these words:"Gagalingan ko para tumaas level ko!". And I really did my best. :) It paid off. Pinakita ng ballet na pag ginusto talaga ng isang tao ang isang bagay at gumawa siya ng paraan para makuha ang bagay na yun, walang pakundangang makukuha niya iyon. And that's the reason why I so love ballet.
BTW, ice cream#34 ay si alam mo na. He's the one I was ranting about for quite sometime here. *laughs* He's so adorable. *laughs a mocking laugh* Oh shut up, self! Here you go again, dreaming about him.
How will I ever know YOU? That's what I can say right now. *sighs* Ciao!

*i blabbed at* 5/17/2006 05:28:00 PM
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

I take things for granted. Like my review sessions. I don't really like attending the review (ows?). Well, not that I don't like the whole thing but I'm just not into you know, stressing your brain in the middle of summer. It's a no-no for students. Righty-o?
Alrighty. I don't really know what I want to rant.
So I'll just make a new skin for my blog.
Caio!

*i blabbed at* 5/16/2006 01:54:00 PM
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Monday, May 15, 2006

Relief. What a nice word.
2 mishaps had occurred this day. First was last morning. I was so eager to go to the cr to empty my bladder but I am too shy to approach our teacher considering that no one has ever done that so I, being the reserved person just stayed sitted and tried to calm myself down. And I also just decided to wait for the break and it turns out there's no damn break. Bad luck. But at the end, there was a savior who approached the teacher. Yey! I just can't explain how I felt that moment as I was going towards the cr. Relief! Hallowed relief!!!
The second one happened during noontime. I found out my name was not listed in IV3. Oh no. Big trouble ahead. That means I would probably be graduating in other school rather than STC. Oh no. So the whole lunch, I thinked of an alternative of STC. I chose to just go to my mom at Long Beach and study there which I don't even want to do. And then, there's relief! Magbibigay nalang daw ng letter explaining that we forgot to give the card to the registrar. How silly is that, forgetting that chore. Oh well. We're just humans. Right?
Research daw ang aking elective. Thank God. Another Relief. I so don't want to be in Visual Arts although I find it interesting but nah! I prefer Research! :)
Caio!

*i blabbed at* 5/15/2006 05:46:00 PM
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Saturday, May 13, 2006

Yesterday is a hell of a good day.
Review was fun and it's because of our HIP english teacher! She's way too cool
for her age. It's rare to find someone in her mid 30's who's updated in opm
music.
People sitted at the back were so high. I don't even know why. They suddenly
laughed out so loud in chorus that the whole class also laughed. Hmm, maybe they
still have hang-overs. haha.
While we were waiting for our HIP english teacher, something very creepy happened
to us (nika and i). There was this guy who's sitted in front of us. He was
browsing the phone of his friend who's his seatmate. He suddenly raised the phone
and pretended to take a picture of him and his friend. I noticed he's just
pretending because the phone's cam was facing at us two. So we panicked and abruptly parted our heads from each other (because that time, we were talking so our heads were just millimeters away). Thank God that incident just lasted for seconds. If not, beware you two. KIdding! *laughs*
Anyway, as usual, I haven't had a single talk with that person. Oh well. Oi, julz, ayan ka nanaman. Enough of that thing.
After our review, nika and i headed to sm centerpt to eat lunch and stroll or in layman's term, window-shopping. We ate at Jollibee, the food chain full of childhood memories. I just love their spaghetti!
After some window-shopping, we chilled at the foodcourt.
Call me "THE SITTING DANCING QUEEN OF SM CENTERPOINT'S FOODCOURT". Because of those TWO, we were so high and so what do you expect? Craziness. I tried to get the attention of 20 people by dancing with the tune (including the theme song of SM) but then the show there at the foodcourt began so I just got 18 attentions.
Ciao!

*i blabbed at* 5/13/2006 05:12:00 PM
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Fate. It's practically just a word. A WORD. The word that's so invincible. People don't understand why their fate is like this and that. And that's what I am puzzled about right now. But eventhough my fate will not be the one I planned to have, I promised myself I will just accept it. Surely, God has a reason behind my fate. For once, I planned to fight my fate and push what I really have in mind and what I really, really desire. But I just can't. As I said, fate is invincible. It's a very very invincible one. Don't fight something that cannot be worth fighting with.
So if my fate dictates that I won't be with YOU, so be it. I don't care. Oh wait. I care. But I couldn't stop fate. It'll just drive me insane. Acceptance is the best solution. If my fate says I won't be ,at least your true friend, then so be it. Fate, don't disappoint me. As if it will listen to me. But hey, we never know! Fate, make my wish a reality. Please. I am so desperate. Desperate. Desperate. DESPERATE. D-E-S-P-E-R-A-T-E.

*i blabbed at* 5/10/2006 07:23:00 PM
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"Ayan nanaman, titingin nanaman yan sa taas."
*laughs* Siyempre hindi kayo maka-relate dito.
Finally, I could show you some pictures. :) Just proceed to snapshots section @ my navigation. I'll just organize the new pics later on.

*i blabbed at* 5/10/2006 07:06:00 PM
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Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Bullshark. What's wrong with me being left at home alone?
Ciao!

*i blabbed at* 5/09/2006 07:14:00 PM
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I am in love with Weezer's music. They're all so coool. And most of all, Island in The Sun is the best-est music they made. I play that for a couple of times whenever I use the pc. Go Weeeeeeezer!!!!
Yesterday:We arrived early. And hopefully, BRAINS opened at 7pm I think so we can cool ourselves down because of the scorching morning sun. Usually, they open at 10mins before 8am. For 20 mins, we were the only ones in the room and of course, we, as you know are vain people so why not take the chance of taking pictures? And so, we took pictures of the room and ourselves, too. Sad to say, I cannot post those pictures. I keep on sending the pics to my email but Globe does not coordinate with me at all. Stupid MMS. Anyway, going back. So we took some pics before somebody joins us in the room.
Our classmates started coming in. :)
I was very much thankful to find out that we are not to be given problem sets for english.Only a codigo. And from that 2-page codigo, I saw a sort of name: A Yap. So I had a hunch that our teacher would be a chinese/japanese-looking one. And I was right. :)
She's 35 y/o already but she looks young for her age. I love her accent. She's so slim. I was like dazed of her abs. No bulges. She's perfect for commercials for Nesvita. haha.
I enjoyed this session. And I am truly sure I would enjoy all 3 sessions of english. :)
Caio!

*i blabbed at* 5/09/2006 08:47:00 AM
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Monday, May 08, 2006

"Hindi namin kayo pinipigilan. Pakilala niyo sa amin."
Well, how will I ever gonna do that or rather obey that if I don't and he don't know me? We don't talk but we had eye contacts though which really tickle me. We don't spend time together which I really hate. Now tell me, how am I going to obey that command?
Just kidding. It's too early. I'm just 15 and I still have to do something else. Something more important than you know.
I said to myself awhile ago. "Do not let him dominate and manipulate your life. Walang mangyayari sa'yo." I am totally screwed if I let my mind wander all the time. It will definitely eat up my entire time reserved for reviewing for the entrance exams I 'll need to pass and also, if possible..perfect those. In your dreams, juLz. In your damn dreams.
Anyway. I will promise myself starting this moment that I will have a serious time and a dreaming time. If I decide to name a certain time as a review time, I will review and not a single brain cell would formulate a thought of him. The question is: Can I do that freaky thing?
Maybe.
Maybe not.
Okay, so erase that promise. I must not promise something out of my ability as a human. Right?

Portion of this entry is for YOU.

If you only know how I am feeling right now and these past few days, you'll probably just won't care at all because we do not utter a single word to each other. Not-a-single-word-at-all. And I am totally, absolutely, definitely pissed off whenever I think about that. The thing is, we don't know each other but we know that we both exist. But how come we don't talk and do things together? Is it because we just don't know how to begin? Or maybe there's just no chance of knowing each other. It's really hard, in my part.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit mahirap pero...mahirap talaga eh. Bakit ako nahihirapan? Kasi hindi pa natutupad ang hiling ko. Ang munting hiling ko. Ang makilala kita. Oo nga. I know your name but I don't know YOU. I am not after the name. I am after YOU. IKAW.
This is my 1st ever to experience this intensity of I don't know if I will call this love or what. Whatever. I'll just leave you, my dear reader in naming my feeling. Basta for me, it's not infatuation nor love. In between. And I don't know what's in between that two. If there is, let me know.
Hanggang tinginan lang ba tayo?

Caio

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Sunday, May 07, 2006

My phone is fixed! At last. Yey!
I'm uber excited already. Weeeee!
I'll describe Hersheys to you, my friend.

A bit taller than me. Maybe 2 in or 5 in.
Siyempre, cute siya!
Gentleman!!
May cellphone but I don't know the number. :(
HE don't know me but I guess he knows my face. At least! hahahahha
HE looks like an innocent one. But we never know!
Not a pure Filipino based on his cute face.
Hindi nagbabag. Pero siguro naman gumagamit siya sa school niya.
Has a nice and cute smile. :)
Hindi ata fan ng internet. I haven't seen a single account of him here in the net. Okay, okay. I stalked him here. Remember, I am not myself. Somebody's trapped in my body. haha
He has a name starting in J! hihi
And most of all, he likes me! Kidding!

That's just the infos I know about Hersheys though I don't really talk to him.

Ciao!

*i blabbed at* 5/07/2006 04:45:00 PM
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Saturday, May 06, 2006

New poems!!!! Check out in my "poems and quotations" section in my navigation. Enjoy!

*i blabbed at* 5/06/2006 02:29:00 PM
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I just found something. haha. And I am very happy I found it. Kaso hindi masyadong mababanggit siguro dun si ano. Haay. But at least I found it, diba?
Hay nako! What is happening to me? I am not like this. Hindi ako toh. Hindi AKO yung andito sa katawang ito.
Anyway. Hindi lang naman yan ang topic na meron sa mundong ito so I am changing it right now before I transform to an insane creature.
Hmmmm. I don't know any topics except for that. Oh well.
Okay okay. I'll just stick to that subject.
Hersheys na name niya. I so love that chocolate but I prefer Toblerone pa rin! Why Hersheys instead of Toblerone? Kasi hindi pa yun yung talagang alam mo na! haha. Hindi pa talaga yun yun! Pero malay natin, diba? Baka yun na yun. We just don't know.
Sometimes, we don't see it coming. Hindi tayo aware kasi we don't know the future, the thing that encourages us to do everything in our best way possible. Hindi natin alam kung may bukas pa. Basta ang alam natin, dapat nating itrato ang bawat araw na dumadaan sa buhay natin na para bang huli na natin ito. At ang hirap gawin yan. Walang sinumang tao ang hindi nahihirapang gawin iyang bagay na yan. At magpasalamat tayo na naiintindihan ni God yan.
Ang drama masyado! haha. O diba? Do you agree with me now na hindi ako ito? Somebody's trapped in my body. Crazy but true.
Ciao!

*i blabbed at* 5/06/2006 01:52:00 PM
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Friday, May 05, 2006

Ibang-iba ang feeling na ito. Hindi masyadong makakain at maka-concentrate. Bigla nalang tatawa ng walang dahilan. Ay teka. May dahilan pala. hahha. Hindi mapakali ang utak pag hindi naiisip yun. Hindi nakakatulog agad dahil busy ang brain cells sa pagfoformulate ng mga ideas about dun. Bigla nalang sasakit o di kaya's maykikiliti ng puso ko whenever I think about yun.
Mga sinyales na masama. Pero masarap na pakiramdam ang dulot naman nun kaya okay lang munang magka-side effects kasi summer pa naman eh.
Bakit nagkakakganito ako ngayon eh hindi dapat ganito ang aking situation. Paano napunta sa ganitong level? Ang hirap, pare! Hindi mo lang alam! Kakaiba talaga. Walang definition ata ito eh. Wala akong mahanap na word na magsuisuit sa feeling kong ito. Ang weird.
O bakit ganito?
LOve is a devil; it is the only demon angel that exists. Sabi yan ni Shakespeare sa Love's Labour's LOst. At I agree with him. Totally!
I am sure hindi mo ito maiintindihan pero papsensya ka na! If you want to learn more about this just ask me. :)
Caio

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Thursday, May 04, 2006

She ruined my night. I was like sooo high and giddy and then, here she come sabotaging my night. A night I call extraordinary. The night I really not prepared to have.
She ruined it. She sabotage it. She brought me back to earth. Bye-bye "paradise".
And until now, I am still annoyed to what she did last night. I just prayed that God would forgive her. Hindi na ako humirit pa kagabi kasi I don't want to ruin my night. Nasaktan talaga ako.
Ang ganda ganda ng gabi ko tas ganyan lang pala ang mangyayari!
I so hate being in a super-duper-mega-elation mode and then at the end, that mode would be replaced with melancholy which I really depised. Nasa taas ka na ng bundok tas bigla ka nalang ibaba ng kung sino man. Diba ang sad nun? Triumphant ka na tas biglang nanakawin sa'yo yung victory mo.
Ang lungkot.
But I don't want to ruin my disposition so I will move on and ignore that disappointing night. That's life. You forget and just move on. Walang mangyayari sa'yo kung pamumunuan ka ng sulkiness or hatred. You'll never get the dream you desire. And you'll not be adorable in God's eyes.
Ciao!

*i blabbed at* 5/04/2006 09:34:00 AM
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Wednesday, May 03, 2006

I'm a total wreck right now. And I'm not myself. And for that matter, I just want you to bear with this crappy entry.
Paradise. That's where I am, my mind that is. I feel like I am floating in the skies with no problem sets to attend to nor lessons to review. No problems. Totally carefree and free.
I kept on observing strange things around me but my mind is really not that keen in observing. It just wants to wander off. Especially in unbelievable events.
Bakit ganito? Hindi ko pa nararamdaman tong ganitong pakiramdam. Kakaiba. Sobra. Ganito ba talaga? Sagutin niyo nga ako. Bakit ganito? O baka hindi lang ako sanay. Kakaiba talaga eh! Hindi siya normal sa sistema ko. Pero naisip-isip ko rin na siguro nga hindi lang ako sanay at inuubos ko lang ang oras ko sa kaka-share sa'yo nitong nararamdaman ko. So..Ciao!

Bakit ka pa kasi lumitaw sa buhay kong mapayapa!

*i blabbed at* 5/03/2006 07:30:00 PM
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I so like our chem teacher's get-up awhile ago. She wore this very colorful sleeveless and then paired with a beige shorts and a native straw hat. It's quite ironic though because we were informed that we are not allowed to wear slippers yet our teacher wore a very summer-y outfit. Talk about rules and regulations.
I also like her way of teaching though I'm not that comfortable in her socratic method so I was like uber nervous throughout the discussions. And the worst part was that I was so pissed off due to my necessity to go to the cr. I so hate those encounters where you are bound to do something important but your body condition bother you.
I kept interchanging my support foot of my cross-leg position. I can't seem to imagine how I manage to get out of the classroom still alive. Stupid bladder. Wrong timing.
Despite this unfortunate event, I can say that this 6th session in BRAINS is a success naman. :)
Ciao!